The stormy days didn't use to bother me. I honestly used to like the thunder and lightning, the cloudy skies and rain dripping down on the leaves, lashing against the windows. I found it comforting to fall asleep to the sound of the raindrops and the rumbles and the pleasant sounds that come with storms and rainfall. Then I got RSD. After that set in, rain and thunder and storm systems took on a whole new meaning. I became an 80+ year old woman, complaining of the upcoming rain; how I could feel in in my joints. How I became so stiff, unable to bend or move. The thunder sending waves of pain washing over my body. The sound of rain like tiny needles pricking my skin. I no longer was lulled into a deep sleep, rather I was wracked with pain and kept awake all night and tortured through out the day by these changes in the weather.
I wish I could just enjoy the changes in the weather. Lord knows where we live we get enough cloudy, rainy and stormy days. I don't know what climate would be best for me, but I know that that this one isn't it. I'm achy, I'm sore and I've aged so much more in the past year than just the one year that I've lived. I'm living in dog years it would seem. While maybe only one year has ticked by on the calendar, I feel as though more like 7-10 have been stripped off the clock for my body. I feel so much older, more run down, less spry and certainly like things aren't going to work as well or for as long.
I just wonder. When will other things start to wear me down. When will other little things start to add up. I keep hoping for a turn around. Yet I find myself doing things that I never thought I'd do, at least not for another 30+ years. I'm chopping vegetables in the kitchen sitting down. Not because I'm lazy - but because I literally can not handle being on my feet any more. I am just weary. And it's the little things that are wearing me out. That are exhausting me. Like writing on my computer right now. I can barely keep my eyes open. So, I'm not going to any longer.
Good night, sweet dreams- and good luck.
I wish I could just enjoy the changes in the weather. Lord knows where we live we get enough cloudy, rainy and stormy days. I don't know what climate would be best for me, but I know that that this one isn't it. I'm achy, I'm sore and I've aged so much more in the past year than just the one year that I've lived. I'm living in dog years it would seem. While maybe only one year has ticked by on the calendar, I feel as though more like 7-10 have been stripped off the clock for my body. I feel so much older, more run down, less spry and certainly like things aren't going to work as well or for as long.
I just wonder. When will other things start to wear me down. When will other little things start to add up. I keep hoping for a turn around. Yet I find myself doing things that I never thought I'd do, at least not for another 30+ years. I'm chopping vegetables in the kitchen sitting down. Not because I'm lazy - but because I literally can not handle being on my feet any more. I am just weary. And it's the little things that are wearing me out. That are exhausting me. Like writing on my computer right now. I can barely keep my eyes open. So, I'm not going to any longer.
Good night, sweet dreams- and good luck.
Someone told me long ago
there's a calm before the storm,
I know
There's been calm for some time.
Have you Ever seen the rain - Credence Clearwater Revival
