I've got a lot of information that I've been trying to digest, absorb, think over and turn over in my mind over the past month. There has been many changes, some abrupt, some major and some painful. I'm hopeful that I am just beginning to start out on the right path. I'm a long way off from being where I need to be, but perhaps my big toe has nudged the line that is the start to that long road that will take me to where I need to get to - at peace with my body. Not in SO much pain all of the time. Granted, I will always be in pain, but it's just been such a continued and drastic downhill slide that it must stop. So, I'm hopeful that I'm figuring out the right measures to take.
Tomorrow we head back out to the CC for our monthly visit. It's getting to where I know that trip like the back of my palm. It's at once annoying because of the cost and time and then again strangely calming and relaxing. It gives the husband and myself time to talk just one-on-one and really hit the range of topics- from serious to silly to family to life and our hopes and dreams and everything in between. We listen to music, we make stops when I need a break from the car vibrations or to stretch my legs - or when we have the babe for a bottle or a diaper change, and just really let the world be all about the three of us. No phones buzzing in. Not him rushing off to work, no text messages that interrupt every (the timing is insane!) conversation we try to have! So, I'm going to settle back into the passenger seat, take charge of the radio and enjoy our day out tomorrow and hope for some continued good information from the doctors tomorrow (and a short wait in once we get there!).
In the meantime, I'm hoping that tonight, maybe I can relax. I've been having such bad headaches to top it off lately that I can't even stand to listen to music softly as I fall asleep - which is completely unlike me. I always like to have something on in the background - something to match my mood. It's as though I'm setting the soundtrack to my life. Lately with all of the thoughts swimming in my head and migraines pounding behind my eyes - it's been more radio static than music!
Here's to hoping for more information, good answers and steps towards a better and brighter future!! And hopefully some more music to listen to soon.
Tomorrow we head back out to the CC for our monthly visit. It's getting to where I know that trip like the back of my palm. It's at once annoying because of the cost and time and then again strangely calming and relaxing. It gives the husband and myself time to talk just one-on-one and really hit the range of topics- from serious to silly to family to life and our hopes and dreams and everything in between. We listen to music, we make stops when I need a break from the car vibrations or to stretch my legs - or when we have the babe for a bottle or a diaper change, and just really let the world be all about the three of us. No phones buzzing in. Not him rushing off to work, no text messages that interrupt every (the timing is insane!) conversation we try to have! So, I'm going to settle back into the passenger seat, take charge of the radio and enjoy our day out tomorrow and hope for some continued good information from the doctors tomorrow (and a short wait in once we get there!).
In the meantime, I'm hoping that tonight, maybe I can relax. I've been having such bad headaches to top it off lately that I can't even stand to listen to music softly as I fall asleep - which is completely unlike me. I always like to have something on in the background - something to match my mood. It's as though I'm setting the soundtrack to my life. Lately with all of the thoughts swimming in my head and migraines pounding behind my eyes - it's been more radio static than music!
Here's to hoping for more information, good answers and steps towards a better and brighter future!! And hopefully some more music to listen to soon.
