I try to read to distract myself from the pain- that only makes it worse. Too many stories crowd the pages & headlines- animals abused and killed; children and babies- so innocent and beautiful, beaten, abused & killed. What has become of our "civilized" society? I have to endure this hellish pain day in and day out. It's a horrid disease with no cure. Why is it our society is so intent on running around and inflicting so very much pain on innocent and helpless victims? To abuse an animal or a child is the lowest form of "person" you can be. I loathe "people" like that. I must endure my pain. I have to suffer. No child should. No animal should. I want to protect them all. I'm sad and sickened that in our advanced and civilized country child abuse & animal abuse is the open dirty little secret. Why are we not doing more? We will never cure cancer, RSD, MS or anything else if we can't even take a strong stand and go after deviants that pray on animals & children & take them out of society. I wish it were at least that my suffering meant that someone else- a child or animal- didn't have to feel pain; because that's all I ever feel.
Feeling like I want sleep- and it's not going to visit me tonight. The damn RSD monster is rearing his head & making his claim for tonight. Feeling too weak to fight. And feeling like I've rambled. Ehhh. So be it.
